Tuesday, January 18, 2011

FEAR

(I am NOT pregnant - but take comfort in worrying about things that haven't happened))
I am afraid - truly afraid. I want to have another baby so badly BUT:
1. my age - I am of "advanced maternal age" which causes many problems
2. I have had two miscarriages and 1 chemical pregnancy  - will I have more?
3. Down Syndrome or worse
4. I sadly do not know why I miscarried and if my babies had chromosomal problems and so I am confused and worried that a new baby might

I do not want to test after being pregnant because an abortion is not an answer for us - I do want to test because I want to be prepared - I don't want to test because I am afraid to know.

prayers prayers prayers

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